DIPSOMANIAC :D

2012-02-01T12:35:00.000+08:00

Look how cute they are ! This is my big family <3

Chinese new year was kinda tiring this year.

Had to juggle family, work and studies.

Even skipped reunion dinner with family!

Got a few knuckles to my head, and not to miss out, the naggings.

I got damn pissed with this particular person.

Soreloser in gambling, moneyface in winning.

Rough with my puppies, still insist of getting one.

When I went to work, mum gave her one of the pups.

I screamed, I fussed, I grumbled and I complained.

Couldn't do shits, but eventually she called during the night.

She said she was afraid, th pup kept crying, she didn't know what to do.

You'll never be one to take care of any pets.

Don't try to blame everything on your son,

It's your responsibility, and your's alone. YES,YOU.

Well, other than that. It was enjoyable.

Happy chinese new year peeps ~

2011-11-26T04:42:00.000+08:00

As promised by Dawn, this is our crab feast :D

Yummy yummy, but it wasn't as nice as we thought it should.

Hahaha, Jorine and I managed to pass our exams! Yay!

Don't have to retake our module, and we're able to go ACCA in January.

Hope business law don't screw me up, tsktsk.

Gonna move back to lorong ahsoo later in the afternoon.

I feel reluctant to move back, I like it here.

But oh well, Shaowei is right. They aren't my real family, I need to go sooner or later.

Sigh, I will miss them alot ):

Alot of things happened in this short month.

Be it for better or worse, I just hope that we're close friends still.

I'm sorry for all the misunderstandings that I didn't try to clear.

I'm sorry for being such a blockhead, that I didn't see what's actually happening.

I'm sorry that things turn out this way, and made you guys cried.

I will try my best to build up our friendship, and not let loose it.

2011-11-23T03:59:00.023+08:00

My dream is to travel around the world, exploring new places.

It seems impossible to actually live up to my dream.
Unrealistic, and I can't afford it.
Let's talk about my goals instead, easier !
I want to get my bike and car licence next year, and also a dslr camera.
I want to pass all my exams on the first attempt to stop wasting money.
Get myself a job, save money and travel to taiwan with friends!
Omg, I can't wait to be on that plane now!
Just hope that everything will go smoothly, everyone being healthy.
And I wish, my father to stop bugging me when I move back.

2011-11-19T16:22:00.001+08:00

Geek geek geek !

Can't believe I'm actually moving back next week, and I got used to living here already.

Had been mugging for my exams, and I swear I hate TT6, stupid subject.

Failed for it once, and had to retake it again, thank god I passed.

Now I need to mug for TT7, argh examinations just sucks.

Things are happening at incredible speed, moving house, moving back, exams,

friends, family, dogs, money etc.

I hope everything will turn out better, but it doesn't seems so at the moment.

Life's a bitch, so contradicting, and unfair.

I got two hands, but I can only grab hold of one thing, and let loose another.

Stop pretending ;

2011-11-13T00:24:00.000+08:00

YOU HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA.

I'm sick and tired of repeating the same old shit,

going through the same cycle, feeling the same everyday.

You really don't have a clue about it ?

And here I am, thinking that you knew me well enough.

I am so wrong, so goddamn wrong. But I sincerely hope I'm not.

I just want to fucking disappear, no one really cares anyway.

I'm terrified of knowing the true colours of every face.

I was afraid to talk to anyone for they might think I'm crazy.

Enough of the empty promises, and all the empty words.

You want to know how I'm feeling?

Suckerfish, this song sang it out loud.

TOUCHÉ AMORÉ - Suckerfish

That sinking feeling when you’re not yourself:
searching for a reason for some kind of help,
but all that comes is empty promises and feeling anxious and useless.
Then, when I’m my worst, comes someone who I don’t deserve.
I’ll call her destroyer, and I’ll destroy her.
If you never had the chance, sing hallelujah.

2011-11-09T18:42:00.000+08:00

I'm procrastinating to change my blogskin.
I like this blogskin, but I find it too plain and dull. But who cares anyway.
There's this one phrase, which have been in my mind ever since I read it.
" The only constant is change, and change is the only constant "
The only thing that doesn't change, is change itself.
Everything is subjected to change. People, Love, Life, Friends and Family.
Do you despise change? I do.

Suicide, it's the one mistake you'll won't live to regret ;

2011-11-07T03:00:00.001+08:00

Give it up already, I've heard enough.

Yes, I'm useless, not fitting to be your daughter, but neither do you fit to be my father.

Guess it might be quite shocking for you, that I remembered my mum's birthday.

How about you? She's your wife, not the third party. And we're your goddamn children.
It's not like you've done everything right, and I've done everything wrong.
Humans make mistakes.

Let go, let go, let go. It's pointless trying to hang on.
I'm just that person everyone replaces after a while.
Be it relationship, or friendship. I don't think I can ever believe it again.
And that's what happens when you let people in,
They destroy you.

Maybe I'm feeling the stress from the upcoming examinations.
But I couldn't help but to suppress that urge to feel self-destructive.
Many might not understand, but it actually helps.
It's like a form of relief, for me.
Don't judge, I don't want to be like this anyway.

2011-10-30T22:24:00.028+08:00

Oh, I forgot. You're a bitch.

You really disgust me with your character. Yes, I should well know I'm prolly doing the same now.

I shouldn't judge you the way you judge people, or probably us.

Have you know us for long, or do you even know us at all ? Perhaps not, so stop yapping away.

It really makes me nauseous just by seeing your face now.

If we look like WFS, at least we got the looks to be, how about you ?

You ain't pretty yourself, I have to admit you are skinnier and definitely smaller.

Who's perfect in every way ? Are you ? You're not, Fbitch.

AND DON'T YOU DARE TO SCOLD MY MUM, DIRECT YOUR INSULTS TO ME IS ENOUGH.

If you don't like us, don't be a hypocrite and act all-friendly-and-full-of-smiles in front of us.

I have no idea in which way have we offended you, to receive such harsh comments.

Its absolutely hilarious and nonsensical, I really hope you'll stop cowering behind the screen.

Say it straight in my face, or our faces instead.

Stop being a coward, or a bitch. Fucker, I pray you and your face can dissipate from my world.

Oh! You might never get to read this, but one day if you do.

I wish your good friends will stay and be there for you, always.

Cause, your mouth seriously stinks.

2011-10-29T02:43:00.002+08:00

Dear mummy, I hope you're okay. Please remember to watch your diet and eat regularly.
I miss you , terribly ):
Motherhood is a tough 24 hour job,no pay,no day off,

sometimes it is unappreciated, but yet resignation is impossible.

Sorry for always being a nuisance to you, I love you :D

Okeydokey, I'm not being corny right now.
I just miss her, its been a week since I saw her ):
Walked the dogs for super long, studied too!
Dawn's a sleepyhead, tsktsk couldn't wake her up today.

Shared food with her mum just now, and Doreen offered fruits :D

I'm eating icecream now ! Her dad asked her to go get him cigs and she buy icecream for me!

Awesome isn't it ! And Bibi is getting fatter just by staying here.

PS : Hey stalker, I'm definitely a better stalker than you! No doubt about that.

I'm a daydreamer ;

2011-10-27T03:25:00.000+08:00

THIS IS JUST FYEAH AWESOME.

Its been raining the whole day, great weather to sleep in.

Dawn's mum cooked today, her soup was delicious !

After eating brunch, we went down to buy icecream, yumyum.

Watched tv, played reversi, and watched snsd concert on dvd too!

And I actually ate orea mcflurry while dawn got her horlick mcflurry just now.

Rainy day, ice cream is the best dessert ever.

2011-10-25T13:33:00.003+08:00

Exhausting weekend! Move, pack and clean ):
I'm currently staying over at Dawn's house for a month, before moving into the new house.
My dogs aren't used to sleeping in the kitchen, or being tied up.
Bobby whines, Bibi barks. I didn't sleep well, but luckily they don't make so much noise now.
I can't believe that I'm actually here right now!
And all I do is rot rot rot, eat eat eat and sleep sleep sleep :D
Gotta study soon, I hate exams.
Argh, bloody father can't even let me have some freedom.
CAN YOU FREAKING UNDERSTAND THE CURRENT SITUATION, F.

2011-10-22T00:39:00.001+08:00

-Meow-

Life's a mess right now, I always can't get back on the right track .

Its seriously weird trying to blog about daily life like how I used to.

I've got nothing to blog about already ):

My life seems much more exciting in the past, its a bore now.

2011-08-13T08:21:00.000+08:00

My favourite pictures ♥

Hooray! Marcus somehow retrieved my blog, and I decided not to close it down .

I might continue blogging, well if I feel like it haha. It feels weird blogging again,

I used to blog about you-know-who although I never once mention his name here.

But I find it silly and honestly, a little childish.

A brand new start maybe? Change blogskin, change the bloglink.

But I'm just too lazy to do it :D Sorry !

How long haven't I blog about anything, I'm quite reluctant to blog too.

Alrighty, till next time~

2010-06-22T02:22:00.000+08:00

You can shed tears that he has gone,
Or you can smile because he lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that he will come back,
Or you can open your eyes and see all that he has left.

Your heart can be empty because you can't see him,
Or you can be full of the love that you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

You can remember him and only that he is gone,
Or you can cherish his memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back,
Or you can do what he would want: Smile; open your eyes; love and go on.

(Anonymous)

2010-04-19T13:58:00.000+08:00

I don't know if i should continue blogging .

2010-03-28T22:27:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps ! I'm happy yesterday and today morning ! (:

You know why ? It's my birthday ; 27March .

On friday night , my sim card was unavailable , so i told everyone not to sms me .

Woke up in th morning , there was tons of smses and fb notifications .

Replied all of them , bathed and dressed .

Went out to Jorine's house , and Alvin was alr there , opps .

Th weather was damn warm , so i sat in front of th fan and ate ice .

While walking there , i saw my icecream cake ! (:

Then they told me a shocking news , my photos were stolen / lost .

Haha but it's okay , after that they brought me to ClarkeQuay .

Ate waraku ! Yumyum nicenice (:

Pictures are all in facebook thank you !

Saw th bungy thingy, wanted to play . But jorine scare of heights .

Alvin didn't dare either , tsktsk .

Cabbed down to AMK , watched remember me .

After that went back to Serangoon , took my cake .

Then they took out my presents ! haha a ring , a red crumpler bag .

Went 7-11 bought breezer , and collected my angbao :x

Walked home , and saw th present XiaoHui gave me , levis wallet ? (:

Ate th cake , talked and waited .

Zz and bpx came , and i went down . They ate and we talked .

Came up to my house , and drank red wine , chit chatted .

Around 3 to 4 , we went down to eat .

Slacked till 5 plus , and they went home , so we went home too .

Sleep in th living room , then changed to th room .

Happy happy happpppppppy ~

To jorine and alvin : appreciate what you have done for me .

Thanks for spending so much and treating me to such nice lunch .

To Benjamin : I'm sorry bean ! But next year , i'll book you on th 27march alr !

No more empty promises !

To XiaoHui : Thank you for th present (: , sorry i couldn't be there personally .

Will go out with you soon soon soon !

To Peixun and Zhengzhi : Thank you for accompanying me !

Shall solve everything as soon as possible , won't let you guys get worried .

To Adryan : Boo ! Bestie , thanks for th BIGBIG wish , appreciate it (:

Don't need for presents ! [ Eh , where is it ? ]

To Dzul : HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! 28march eh .

You're older by another year ! goodluck in everything !

To all my friends : THANKS ALOT ! (:

Th world , within my walls . ♥

2010-03-23T12:24:00.001+08:00

Do you remember ? Can we bring it back ?

Yes , i do miss th good old times . But there are only memories to keep .

I miss my primary school , th twins and shao min .

I always stayed over with th twins during holidays , and

trading stickers and playing hide and seek with shaomin and her brother .

Oh and in school , i would always bully th guy who sit beside me for 3 years !

How unlucky is he right ? Last time , i used to have this crush .

I remembered clearly what he said to me during a camp ;

" Someone asked me to protect you " ,

Because there's a guy who kept bullying me during camp .

So after th camp ,everyday in th parade square, i'll secretly take a peek at him .

Th twins will come and tell me , " Why don't you tell him ? "

I miss how secondary 1E/2E bonded as a class , hilarious .

How we bullied th teachers, hide classmates behind th door and in th cupboard .

Threw newspapers , paperballs and chalk at each other .

I miss th volleyball team'06 and Victor coach .

I remembered how we warm up together and played an exhausting game .

Whenever we're going in for th ball , we'll shout " Let go ! "

And if we scored a point , " ACE ! " . And after training , " 1,2,3 . PEICAI "

Normally after training , we'll have to stand in a line .

Coach will talk about our performances , and i will always hear ,

" Although lydia is short , but she can jump quite high ."

* clenching fist * Haha , hard to believe right ? (:

I miss how we celebrated zenice's birthday and fam outing at JC's house .

I forgotten whose birthday that day was , presents ? Condom LOL

Everyone was thrown into th pool , but i diedie don't want to .

I held on to th toilet pole , saying my phone is in my pants .

Had to play this stupid fork game , and i was unlucky , i MUST be thrown .

When i kept my phone and wasn't paying attention , th guys came .

4 came , 2 at my legs and 2 at my arms . They actually swing me in .

I was going to drown , luckily i know how to swim ! Idiots :x

Celebrated christmas and zenice's birthday .

Th worse thing was , Bpx and me bought a shirt for her .

Yet she was wearing a exact shirt that day ! ):

Haha , i miss how we celebrated new year too , tonned at lan !

We went to a playground too , piggyback-ed zenice along th way .

I miss how i hang out everyday after school with my friends .

They were a funny group of people , such warmness can found with them .

But there was a painful period of time in 2007 .

Yet that didn't stop us from getting back again ! and i missed it alot .

Including Zenice , who made everyone laughed more .

Due to th distance getting further and further , we got separated again .

I miss how secondary 3E/4E was , different classmates but still hilarious .

They still bully our teachers , th newspaper and paperball throwing around .

And pouring water on other people's chair , making them sit without noticing .

Haha ! It was really fun , how we walked home together .

Studied together , going prom , going KTV with fahmy and fred .

How much i missed everything , and wished they could come back .

But everything will not be as perfect as before .

This was just a few memories i mentioned , there's still more (:

But everything is in th back of my head , for myself to keep .

This is th world , within my walls , and i love them .

2010-03-08T12:19:00.000+08:00

I wished for something yesterday night .

That all for these will end , as soon as how they started .

I'm tired of listening to quarrelments all day long ,

And i'm sick of listening to apologies .

This isn't what i wanted , this isn't what i asked for .

You don't have to bother whether you're giving me happiness .

I am happy with what things are , between us as friends now .

I understand , i know how you want me to be happy .

But i can't be after what's happening to us .

2010-02-26T17:27:00.001+08:00

I DON'T NEED SO MUCH OF

YOUR ATTENTION ,

THANK YOU VERY MUCH .

2010-02-18T23:08:00.000+08:00

That's me and marcus , when we were young (:

It's been quite long since i blogged right !

Hmm let's start from th start all over again and again (:

12th February 2010 ;

Jorine , Ernest , Alvin and Ben came over to eat steamboat .

Haha , it was awesome ! i swear there was many food .

But before eating , in th afternoon ernest and alvin was dancing .

Videos and pictures are in alvin's phone , not yet uploaded !

13th February 2010 ;

Relatives ate steamboat with my family too !

Damn damn full ! haha and my relatives went out with my mum (:

14th February 2010 ;

Went to grandfather's house to pai nian and eat lunch .

Then relatives came over to my house , adults played mahjiong

After that , went to auntie's house to eat dinner .

Played blackjack together too ! Won money :x heeeheee

Uncle fetched us home , ate prata for supper .

15th February 2010 ;

Went to another auntie's house , played blackjack again .

Then went to eat dinner at some restaurant , blahblah .

After that , met up wih bpx and co at dg ,

Went jcube and played audition awhile , then find them outside

Walked to monstercue , they played pool while we talked .

16th February 2010 ;

Jorine , Alvin , Ernest and Ben came over in th morning .

Chit chat for awhile , ernest had to go home .

Th rest of us watched movie on ben's lappy .

Then he went home , we called pizza and eat , yumyummy

Jor and alvin stayed over too ! ,

17th February 2010 ;

Went out with jorine , alvin and ernest to cineleisure .

Watched percy jackson , and bought clothings .

Went home , and they stayed again ! LOL

18th February 2010 ;

Just now , went to ernest's house .

Jorine suddenly had to go , then we went to eat dinner .

Buy stuffs , and ernest's clothes .

And poooof , now i'm at home blogging !

Nah ! stupid bpx , i updated alr

Categorically empty

2010-02-04T22:33:00.000+08:00

おはよう ! ( Ohayou ! )

Hellos once again if you don't understand what's ohayou .

Hmm i told jorine that i feel like blogging , but now i don't .

Nothing to talk about , no dreams , no nothing .

Except for work , was being trained to do ferris wheel this week .

So damn boring , nobody at all ! lol , but slack ah .

Drank coffee with jorine yesterday at mac , too long never drink alr .

Chatted with her about our past , and jorine saw a handsome guy , haha

Seriously , we both went through almost th same things in our lives !

We got th same thinking of how guys should dress up ,

even our dressings are similar , shorts and shirts .

Haven't been going out lately , except for work , which is damn boring .

And i forget about tuesday ! i cleaned my kitchen and fridge .

Got damn loads of cuts out of no where , only two were serious .

Nothing to say alr ! th following will just be a random sentence ! (:

いいえ ! ( Lie ! ) , I'm not some nice girl .

Don't be blinded by th lies in your eyes .

It's not a disillusionment , it's true .Th demon beneath this thin clothing .

2010-02-01T23:01:00.000+08:00

You guys might ask me , why am i taking so much photos now .

Because i learnt th meaning behind each and every picture .

It captures th moment and memories , instead of just putting it in our minds .

Hmm , i'm worked today and working on wednesday and thursday .

Ehub's ferris wheel is opened ! it's like , finally ! (:

Saving money like mad now , i need money hahah !

My audition account was sold already , so sad , all my memories ):

My brother's account might be selling off too , but i have to get th details first .

If you want to have something , tag me . I'll see if i have it alright (:

I'll be shopping for new year clothings this weekend , packing my room .

And i want to paint my room back to white again , so i'll be busy busy busy !

Thank you boon ho for your drawn power ranger belt !

Hahaha ! random sentence , Oh and " hi my sweetheart " last episode alr ):

2010-01-28T23:03:00.007+08:00

Sorry peeps ! Haven't been blogging for th past few days , i was busy busy busy !

Besides , Alvin didn't upload th photos till today , therefore there's a delay .

Okaaaaaayyyyy ! Let's start from where i can remember alright (:

Oh by th way , th pictures above are taken on different days , i'll talk about them later on !

Hmm , Alvin , Benjamin , Ernest and Jorine are officially my god brothers and sisters .

My mum and dad agreed ! haha , very very very happy !

Okay back to th topic , Last last week or last week we brought ernest to his work place .

Saw him and dawn in marche uniform . Another day , we did th same thing .

But something bad happened , so everyone was unhappy . Went to coffee bean , drank coffee ,

And ate my cheesecake ! (L) , then we went to east coast park and cycled to changi park !

Damn tiring , omfg i'll never want to do that again ):

Then next dew days we went to sentosa , suntan and played volleyball . I think i got darker !

We went to eat at chompchomp too ! Alvin said it was on him , so we ordered alot of foooood

Saw peixun and zhengzhi there too ! i remembered seeing him on th bus another time too

Another few days we went to IKEA ! Alvin and Jorine bought me a cheesecake ! (L)

Bought my mirror , hangers and a glass jar at ikea too .

We then brought th things to Jorine's house and played with her dog , th pictures are shown !

Evening time , i went to central to get my brother's cake and celebrate his birthday ,

All of them stayed over atmy house too , fun yet tiring ! hahaha

After that day , We went bugis with my mum . Shopped for clothings and everything .

At night , we did th floor , see my foot ? It's in th pictures , my floor became

SPARKLING CLEAN AND WHITE ! , see jorine lying on th floor with dettol smell (:

Yesterday , we bought a cake to celebrate 1month friendship , lol lame right ? but cool

7December2009 (L) , hehehe ! My dog so cute right ! Same as th bear !

I've been working 4days straight ! very tired , cant take it anymore !

Shall update again next time ( insert many many hearts )

I'm an acerbity person ;

2010-01-03T15:12:00.006+08:00

2010 ; A new year ahead , a fresh start .

Click on th different sections of th picture to enlarge it .

Hmm let's start everything afresh alright peeps (:

2009 was a wonderful year , with lovable friends .

Although i might be very antagonistic towards one , but not all .

You could say i'm esoteric or popular , to some .

But apparently i'm friendly , i think .

Last week , we went to played bowling , pool and ate pizza .

With Glen , Adryan , Jorine , Alvin , Benjamin and myself .

Worked worked worked , gotten our pay too .

Went over to Jorine's house , cooked macaroni in mushroom soup .

Alvin and benjamin joined too , they helped to buy th food and drinks .

Th next day , they came over to my house , talked and played alot .

Stayed over to countdown at my house ,

Dinner was golden pillow , chicken wings and stingray .

Went down to jorine's house awhile , and bought Vodka .

Brought it back home and everyone drank it except jorine .

Got dead / happy drunk , countdown , pranked people and and and !

Locked benjamin , alvin and marcus outside my house .

Had so much fun , damn happy (:

All fell asleep around 2-3 am , and woke up quite early .

Went to fetch Ernest at lorongchuan mrt , back to my house again .

Talked alot , like stories and experiences .

They stayed for dinner , hopefully there are more dinners to come .

Talked again and they left at 10+ pm .

Worked yesterday , and they were around th area , met up .

Made flower for myself , and alvin . But gave it to a baby girl , cute one .

Had coffee and went home , slept like a log .

I'm artless towards my group of friends , so i'm telling you th truth ;

My father just gave me a cup of martell ! Omgzxc

More pictures are found in my facebook (:

2010 will be a new year , for me and all of us .

2009-12-28T11:41:00.000+08:00

Last week went out with th clique again ! ( After escape )

This time , Glen and his girlfriend , keith , binod , and fahmy came with us .

Took fahmy's car to bishan , played pool at th golf course there .

Seriously , th pool table sucks , similar to th surrounding .

After that , we went to eat. Most of us ate western food .

Jorine ate chicken rice , shermaine didn't eat , and keith ate eggs .

Fahmy went home after eating . So th rest of us walked to j8 .

Stoned around macdonalds , Binod accompany keith to buy some clothes .

We planned to go pasir ris to catch a movie , but ended up in pasir ris park .

Shermaine had to go home , and we bought snacks and drinks .

Walked to th beach , sat on th waterbreaker .

Had a larger " mini concert " , and talked alot .

Adryan had to go off , and meet his dad .

Went back to eHub , and we went to subway .

Started to play with our hair , glen and jorine did my hair , and i did glen's .

Jorine helped keith with his , and we had fun ! hahahah .

Later in th night , jorine and i went to her church , for COUNTDOWN .

For christmas of course , quite funny thou .

2009-12-24T12:30:00.002+08:00

Hi passerbys and friends ! (:

Managed to update my blog eventhough i'm busy today ,

Adryan came back from his trip to phuket .

Daily caller , went to kl and should be back by now .

Hmm , met up with jorine , adryan and glen for lunch yesterday .

Actually we planned to go dhoby to play pool , but while we're eating ,

Glen came up with this great idea of going Escape theme park .

Collected our pay , at headed to Escape .

Dragged Jorine to play th " Superman " flying thingy , and haunted house .

Oh man , i didn't even see a thing , too scare ! ):

Next , GoKart ! first time playing it , and th guy asked me to drive first .

stupid zxc , quite fun though hahahaha !

Went to play viking twice , with glen and adryan screaming at my ear ,

like maddogs , and madcows . \m/

And we played Wet and wild , or is it Wild and wet .

I sat with glen , adryan went alone , all dripping wet .

LOL! and i sabotaged glen , and he went alone one more time .

Jorine didnt join us because she's scare of heights .

No worries jor ! YOU'RE STILL MY BEST FRIEND (:

Glen went home first , and we strolled to th beach , sat on th water breaker .

As what jorine said , we had our " Mini concert "

And shafiq , carebear (CB) LOL join us , and we went home after awhile .

I had fun guys ! thanks (:

And hopefully today will be as fun too ~

I shall be your's , i'm glad to be , your nemesis .

2009-12-20T14:28:00.000+08:00

Simply pretending , useless .
I've nothing to say to you , no more , no longer .
Pathetic creature , mushy words don't move me , neither did i felt touched .
I'm definately dyspeptic , don't make it worse .

My name's disgraced , drowned in disgusting blood .
For goodness sake , stop being a poser .

--

Done with writing down my emotions , feeling damn disgusted .
Listening to , " Damn if i do ya ; All time low " .
Watched new moon with Jorine , Adryan , Glen , Sean , Shermaine , and ...
Th movie was interesting , i got surprised when adryan enjoyed it .
Watched storm warriors, two days before new moon .
That movie was average , but th actresses kept repeating th same sentences .
Went for a underground gig yesterday , my first time .
Jorine, Adryan, Glen, Shafiq ( Carebear ), Shafiq ( Valentine ), Mamat, Marteen, went with me too , quite crowded .
Adryan flew off yesterday, to phuket or something .
Coming back next tuesday (:

2009-12-16T22:05:00.000+08:00

If you can't stand my attitude , behaviour , temper ,

As long it has something to do with me , whatever you name it .

Not statisfied or unhappy with me , just shoot . Tell me straight in th face .

We can stop being friends , and i shall no longer treat you like one .

I've told you before , to stop whatever you're doing ,

or you'll regret it . But you ignored my advice .

So you've burnt your fingers while playing with fire , and blaming it on me ?

Shame on yourself , trying to seek friends for help to gain something you can't get .

Thinking back , how long have i know you ? Don't you know better ?

What kind of person i am , what i like and dislike .

I treated you like a friend in th past , and what did you take me as ?

It's okay with me , if you were to gl me or whatever .

But when it really starts to get irritating , or annoying ,

can't you feel that my limits had reached its peak ?

To think you said you know me ! what bullshit .

Now i'm giving th same thing back to you , and you can't take it .

" Oh , so i gl her , she can angry . She gl me , i cannot angry ? "

So you have th guts to announce that to my best friend ,

but saying a different thing to me , like apologising ?

There's still more to that , just that i'm too lazy to bring it up .

Well , you better think it through , and don't you ever dare to bribe my friends .

PS ; Stop asking about th obvious , YES IM SAYING ABOUT YOU .

2009-12-13T15:58:00.000+08:00

We ignore those who adore us , and adore those who ignore us .

Hurt those who love us , and love those who hurt us .

I once heard of a melody , i remembered it clearly .

Th notes flowed , like rivers of sound .

They filled my empty heart and echoed in my hollow soul .

And i ached for that sound , that note , that melody .

Okay, shall blog and update a little today (:

Been working for a week in explorer kids alr , although its very slack .

but it's damn tiring as well , playing with th kids and taking care of them .

I don't want to miss my new moon ): but , i don't have time .

I've been reading though , all fiction of course .

Non-ficiton don't interest me .

And my daily phone caller is back from his camp yesterday .

Welcome back stupid asshole :D

One more thing ... this is to someone who is an idiot .

So movies to you are shits ? don't watch it .

Are you any taller than him ? I don't think so , so don't laugh .

Are you slim and handsome like him ? Pssss, i definately don't think so .

Insulting other people's hardwork for our entertainment , get a life bastard .

How can you feel so alone , when i'm still here ?

2009-12-07T16:30:00.001+08:00

VAMPIRES ,

To be human is to bleed .

" If a drop of blood is all that comes between us,
i've never tasted anything sweeter , and yet ,
if we can't love as deeply without it,
i've never known anything more bitter . "

Have you met someone you loved so much ,
But he left you , dissapeared without a word .
How long did you spend to forget him ? or did you not forget .
Day and night you would think of him , alone in your room .
Repeating his name again and again , crying .
Then th most beautiful and saddest word in th world would come .
" Where are you ? "

Rated 8 with reasons ;

2009-12-04T09:33:00.001+08:00

We were given, two hands to hold, two legs to walk, two eyes to see , two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else, for us to find.

I found zilch in my dictionary to describe what a friend you are .

You never lost your zest for partying and darts ,

and disturbing me , horrible lol .

Sometimes , you're acerbic and your calls are often abuzz .

A zappy friend i'm glad to know ,

always yowling when i don't sing or run off without telling .

But still forgiving me even though you said , no .

You seem to be unflappable, and unfliching ,

when it comes to love matters .

What a load of twaddle i'm saying !?

* Verbiage *

I still remembered th first message , th first time we really met .

What a coincidence , but making me guess who you are .

Trying to irritate me ? It will never work ! muahaha (:<

You're not irritating , surely not my enemy , even if you say we are .

Knowing you can't be th onset of my death , so ...

( Thinking what to write , !!! oomph )

Shall i mention your name ? or surreptitiously not mention it ?

Why a 8 and not a 10 ? I bet you can treat me better ! :D

It's verily/ verity , that you can do it , but you're not !

Hope this would make you happy (:

[ Giving a tentative smile ? (: ]

Find arms that will hold you at your weakest ,
eyes that will see you at your ugliest ,
and a heart that will love you at your worst .

Gravity is not responsible for people falling in love.

2009-12-03T21:52:00.000+08:00

Someone asked me, "Why do you keep loving someone who doesn't love you back? There are tons of fish in the water." I simply replied, "Just because it's also water, would you drink from the sea?"

You may only be one person in this world,

but you might mean the whole world for someone .

You can't make yourself feel right,

when you know that it's wrong .

It's th same when people always say ,

you can lie to yourself, but you can't lie to others .

Love lives on hope, and dies when hope is dead .

It is a flame which sinks for lack of fuel .

Love is not altogether a delerium, yet it has many points in common therewith.

Threnody

2009-12-02T23:19:00.002+08:00

Someone used to asked me , "how does it feel to love someone who loves someone else?" After a deep breath, I answered, "It's like hugging a cactus, the tighter you embrace, the more it hurts..."

I cringe upon hearing th word " love " .

What's love , may i ask ?

A boy who's besotted with a girl ?

And when th feelings fade, he gives her a wide berth ?

They were once so mesmerizing, like your knight in his shiny armour.

Your feelings were unstoppable, and you got what you want .

Quotidian, boy-girl relationships don't last long .

As friends, we're anxious to rectify th situation.

We reach out as you fall, held your hand till you're alright .

But we can't stop a recurrence of th situation .

So how about loving someone who was loving someone else ?

It's much more painful , that i can say .

To see them being happy with someone else , instead of you .

And all you can do , is to stand and watch .

Because, loving someone means giving them happiness .
How about your happiness ?

And that's why i choose to be ,
Someone who don't want to get hurt, nor hurting someone else .

2009-12-02T09:48:00.001+08:00

Hoo la la hoo la la hoo la hoo la hoo ~
Hi peeps ! i'm back i'm back (:
Adryan is back to singapore too ! * Waves*
Well got interviewed last week at pasir ris, and i got th job .
Will be starting work this coming friday .
Jorine and Adryan will be working with me too .
We had loads and tons of fun of th past few days ,
Yesterday we went around town to search for jeans ~
Couldn't find anything nice, so .. empty handed !
Went to pool after that, lost to sean and adryan ):
Sean left to celebrate his sister's birthday , HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! :D
Adryan, Carlvin, Jorine and i went back to serangoon .
Gotten our stuff back and went to eat .
Can't sleep for th past few days, damn tiring zxc .
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Minbin sonneh !
here here , th message ! confirm longer than yours (:
Comeon ! cheerup alright , smile smile smile !
Let's talk about our story now , .....
Started all because of huilin , knew you then .
Thought you're not a good boy , hahahah :x
Caused some misunderstandings btw each other , and jayer too .
Get to know you again through melissa ,
both shared your troubles with me , appreciated it that you guys trust me .
Went through thick and thin together , had loads of memories .
Met you for th first time through fam outing ? lol
Cute , small , skinny , blur , quiet , that's all i can describe you !
Hahaha, knowing you more , lovable , funny , protective , and tons .
Although i'm quitting audition , it doesn't means we can't be friends .
I quit audition , you can't blame it on kevin .
I'm no longer interested in such games anymore ,
people quarrel and get into arguements and th next thing they say .
Eh! buay song ah, lai lah ! set time , place and date , we settle outside , don't be kb warriors .OR , mega mega mega , kpkb , gan parents , gl xl ll , act haolian , childish.
So ! you can always contact me in msn or sms (:
Don't have to worry about anything, as long you're happy, i'll be too .
Sonneh, be brave . Don't do th same mistakes over again .
Don't be afraid to love someone , it'll always be different .
( I'm different, so don't say th same thing to me )

2009-11-19T14:27:00.004+08:00

Th best daddy i'll never have ; sean

Th best bestie i'll never have ; adryan

Once again , its still adryan !

Stylish hair huh ? cool dude \m/

Another side ~

Candid seany

Camera shy ; marcus wang

Take a good look at th Prom king of Peicai !

And our model plus Peicai idol ; Glen wee

Popeyes's spoon-fork

(Pronounced as Spoork)

ohh hi peeps ! i got an announcement to make !

"I'm quitting auditionsea ! who's interested in buying over my account?"

haha, okay i have to start from th beginning again ,

due to th late late late post ! so don't think i'm draggy .

Last thursday , 121109 /.

Marcus wang introduced us a salon at serangoon gardens.

" Jasonsally salon " . Adryan cut his hair .

While marcus and i was deciding th colour of our hair .

Sean waited for us , and then went home .

Marcus dyed his hair first, it was natural brown i guess .

Then i finally dyed my hair to brownish gold plus i cut my fringe short .

Friends said that it looked alright for me .

Last friday , 131109 /.

Marcus went back to th salon to do some highlighting .

Marissa came to meet us and practice prom night with adryan .

After that , we went to bugis and shop for dresses , tie and stuff .

Bought same dress as yongyong but of a different colour .

Watched paranormal activity, bussed home .

Couldn't sleep for godsake , stupid movie .

Last saturday , 141109 /.

Prom night !

In th afternoon, yongyong and jacq came to my house .

Changed and do hair, make up , whatever ~

Adryan and zhenwei came over too .

Painted adryan's nails black lol ! and helped him to put on eyeliner .

Finished doing up, went over to carlvin's house .

Waited for him, and waited for glen .

Cabbed to th hotel and registered and blahblah .

Adryan sang , won prom king of peicai lol .

Later th guys all went to th dancefloor , left me and yongyong.

Jorine joined us later on, and we took fahmy's car to paradize .

Th Kbox didn't open, so adryan , yongyong, jorine and me took his care to amk .

While glen, sean and carlvin took th cab .

Singsingsing, and have fun . Drank vodka and whisky too .

Glen was dead drunk , i swear lol

After K , adryan , carlvin and me went lan till morning !

one word to describe , FUN !

Monday , 161109 /.

Went back to school , wanted to collect stuff .

But everything had been moved to th new school .

So we went slacking and lan-ing .

Home sweet home in th evening .

Wednesday . 181109 /.

We went out yesterday to Changi airport !

Ate popeye's which is totally, ewwww ~ at terminal 1 .

Then went to tampiness , walked around , th guys played arcade.

lol adryan's strong man ! \m/ .

Ate pastamania , and then went home ~

They used to call us names , now they want our autographs .

2009-11-07T22:59:00.007+08:00

My friends , my clique .

Found in a song lol .

I found a clique to call my own ,
They are people who are not strangers ,

Th ones that you can depend .

If you trip over they'll catch your fall .

If you kick their dick, they wont break your balls .

If you get drunk and vomit on them ,

They'll make sure you get home safely .

If you cross the road and a truck struck you ,

They'll scrape you up and reconstruct you .

They'll cheer you up if you're depressed .

If you get murdered, they'll avenge your death .

Oh well let me start from th top again !

Was freaking pissed off on wednesday.

Yeah made me concentrate on biology haha .

All th questions that i asked sean, and chapters to study

came out unexpectedly haha, lucky .

Th paper was easy i guess ? but hopefully i can score .

On thursday , went out early in th morning to meet th clique !

Lan-ed and then go to our usual place to study .

But end up talking and slacking instead haha .

Adryan, binod and carlvin went off first as in going home .

Then me and sean went to have to have our paper .

After th paper, was meeting up with carlvin ,

didn't expect adryan to be waiting for us too .

4 of us squeezed into a bench, manzxc it was DAMN SQUEEZY !

okayokay then yesterday , we went to lan again .

Then adryan went home, so we went slacking .

Playing, talking and studying .

Slacked for over 10hours ? LOL had fun ! reached home at 9 .

Th boys sent me home because it was too late and it wasn't safe .

THANKS ALOT GUYS ! :D

Ohhh, we played with our names too ! lol , see !

Adryan : Adryan's dick rub your auntie's nipple .

Carlvin : Carlvin's anus rub lily's very itchy nipple .

Lydia : Lick your dick immediately , action !

Marcus : My anus, rectum corroding until spoil .

Sean : Sexy eyes and nipples .

Ps : It was meant to be a joke, so its kinda sick and no offence made !

if i could dream at all, it would be of you, and i am not ashamed of it

2009-11-04T20:20:00.003+08:00

The medicine to cure my pain ,
Was long gone, far away .
Now is th time, to watch me fade away .
Listen to all this glass shatter ,
Standing drenched from open wounds .
Don't try to save me ,
Heel my words, give it up .

Lucky and unluckly

2009-11-02T18:48:00.002+08:00

201 th posts ! lol .
Well, let me summarise th weekend for you .
Saturday didn't get to go out , had to stay at home .
Did my notes, studying and mugging .
Slept at 3am , then woke up at 8.13 am by adryan's call .
Which is already a sunday .
Went out to study, and had fun , chats and jokes .
Adryan went home early, so left me and carlvin .
Stupid idiot , exorweeesim LOL !
Plus th song '' run this town '' , sounds like quacking .
Well that's all for today :x bored , going blackshot :D

200th memories .

2009-11-01T03:34:00.002+08:00

Well, 01/11/09 shall be my 200th post day !
Changed my blogskin too for a celebration .
Hmm, shall blog tmr, i'm tired .

2009-10-27T07:03:00.002+08:00

I am the walking dead heart breaker, my apologies...

I'm happy you'll never understand...

What it's like to be...

Trapped under six feet of...

Solid glass...

I can see out, but no one gets in...

Screaming at the prison... I've locked myself into...

I'm sorry that I'm still breathing... And that I'll Kill again...

But the loneliness is too much... for me to handle.The taste of fresh blood... pushes me on.

I... told myself... the constant pain...

Could ease... the tension... burning inside...

But the nights... were cold... and the days... dragged to weeks...

I will die... here alone... I will die...

The fear of romance.

The pain of living.

The joy of sorrow.

The strength of not forgiving.(2x)

God help me... I'm so tired...

But in my dreams... the wolves eat out my soul...

God help me... I'm so frightened... But in my dreams...

the wolves tear out my heart...

(Music Break)

I used to be golden... a saint in a time of sorrow...

But then the turning came... and I kissed the sun goodbye...

Don't you get it... It's always darker in my eyes,

The screams of my brothers... egging me on.

A vampire's lament , by Atreyu .

2009-10-25T17:49:00.008+08:00

Adryan and dekai at bus interchg

In th bus, Carlvin , Sean and sleeping Zhenwei

Adryan , Glen and Carlvin

Adryan proposing to carlvin lol

Desperately :x

Dekai with th stupid specs ;

Adryan with stupid specs take #1 !

Adryan with stupid specs take #2 !

And take #3 ! lol

Glen with stupid specs .

In th bus, with creepy ghostly figure

Okay, will be blogging about th past few days .

Finished taking my practical, should be able to pass .

Went gym with adryan , sean , dekai and elton.

Didn't do anything though, then went lan and play .

Then went to school to study, for biology.

For th whole week, met adryan at 7.30.

And walked to garden's macdonald to wait for th rest.

Played lan after eating breakfast, then study .

This continued for a few days, lol crazy right?

Oh yah, went to glen's house and marcus's house too

Friday went to town with adryan and zhenwei,

Zhenwei wanted to shop for prom stuff, but couldn't find any.

Ate gusttimo , if i never remembered wrongly.

Damn! th icecream, DELICIOUS ~

Thanks to my bestie adryan for introducing !

Yesterday, met marcus wang and carlvin in th morning.

Went to play lan, and eat at mac, waiting for adryan.

Next we took 109 to pasir ris, ehub changed alot.

While waiting for th sun to set, i helped carlvin with his work.

Around 7plus, we went to th swamp, a place where i'll cry.

But surprisingly, this time i walked in bravely.

Yes i admit, i saw things inside, one right in front of my face.

Because of a group of guys following us, flashing lights and singing.

We turned th wrong way and came out, and i started tearing.

Then fear overwhelms, i cried. Th rest of them saw things too.

But none saw what i did, crazy if you did.

We walked back to th swamp, wanting to take a shortcut.

Before we step in, adryan said faster walk away.

Something was there, carlvin saw too.

Indeed they were following us, me and adryan felt it.

But guess its over now! and i'm glad i took it on bravely.

Shall stop here then :D Byebye!

So i guess, everyone change from time to time.

Especially friends, people around us .

To friend number 1 :

I suppose, we're just a stepping stone for you ?

You come and go, anytime you want.

Fine, i can accept that. But stop fcking insulting me .

If you say it in my face, i would take it as a joke.

But saying it behind my back, is a total insult .

To friend number 2 :

I merely said to stop doing something,

But you took it as i'm accusing you, nevermind.

What about you telling people, about something i didn't say?

Hey! peeps who have been with me this few days,

Adryan, Carlvin, Marcus wang.

Yeah thanks alot of those fun times, joking and playing.

Sorry that i showed my attitude that day, lol

I like having you guys around, making my day :D

Bestie bestie bestie friends, hahahha

2009-10-14T15:51:00.004+08:00

Badly wounded , from inside out .

Although it isn't rotten yet , but soon .

Someone have stabbed right into my heart ,

It irreparably damaged it , I can't heal .

Woke up around 5am today, couldn't sleep due to my stupid flu .

Damn irritated, bathed and got ready to meet adryan .

Met him downstairs my house, keep coughing zxc .

Walked to gardens , meet up with zaniel, and waited for dekai .

He was late ! lol then blahblah, went to school .

Find Ms Sae, to study for 30mins? she got a meeting :x

After school, because i played blackshot and L4D , i got damn high.

Started to -Z...BAM- ! { LOL its actually a gun sound }, everywhr .

Then because of some stupid things, i ran and fell and sprained my ankle

Okay, i know i'm uduosyncratic , but i had no choice zxc !

Went to akk to have astons , but i didn't eat (:

Bus-ed home with zaniel and walked home ~ now i can't straighten it

my ankle hurts like @#$%^&* lol, and th cough stopped .

PS : Megan Fox said she enjoy having sex .

2009-10-11T11:15:00.005+08:00

Brian and mark

Beloved zenice

Beloved yongyong

Best biology buddy, zaniel

Best daddy ! sean

Hmm, best plurk partner ? dekai

Funny brian :x

Someone drew this , which is my msn dp

lol thanks to that '' someone '' for drawing this .

especially when you drew it in msn, which is stupid :x

Really had a great time yesterday, went out to celebrate Yijie's birthday

Ate buffet? at city hall, each person cost around $22 , quite worth it.

Then trained to db , played audition awhile in Jcube.

Bin, sonneh had to go, so left 7 of us. And we went monstercue.

Played pool, lost to marcus, yijie and leon, if i remembered correctly.

Won kevin thou lol, it was hilarious .

Played lan again, till 11pm and i cabbed home.

Got so freaking tired, plus i suddenly got sick again.

Slept around 2am, keep thinking how to get $800 within a month.

If i don't, i'll really die zxc .

I really hate her , why must she be like this .

Snatching friends all around me since th beginning.

Dragging them all to her side, as if you're some big character .

Thou i still have them as friends , we're not that close anymore .

So what you wanna do ? Keep them as friends, and kick them aside ?

You're not some , daxiaojie . zxc i hate you , i really do .

hold on and keep faith , dear friend .

2009-10-06T19:37:00.000+08:00

'' Somethings are better left unsaid , while stories are left unfold ''

Hmm, been quite busy these few days .
Friday, 2nd of october 2009 , Graduation party!
Wore that HOTPINK class tee to school , man it looks weird.
Quite special though, only our class wasn't wearing uniform .
Got back prelim results, and i flung it badly ? lol
Yong nearly cried, can't stand people crying, i'll join in :x
Took class photos, everything ~
Shall post it up when blogger can upload it .
Saturday, went for guitar lesson, finally finally! i can play half of 21guns.
Sunday ? Just stayed at home, rotting away .
Monday was th best ! i spend 2hrs cleaning up th whole house.
Imagine that, even my brother was shocked to find it so clean -.-
First time calling someone , and literally cooked or whatosever .
Then went out to find friends , and study . spend like $30 over?
And it isn't on me, except for dinner and blahblahblah ~
Today went out again, in th morning ?! adr asked to go lan.
Dragged zhenwei , siravit and yileong along.
Went to mac to study , then saw marcus, jeth, and yileong again.
Blahblahblah~ then cabbed home, sending marcus first.
Then me and zhenwei drop off and adr went home.
Adryan and Zhenwei, you guys are jokers, seriously .
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Her spurious acts , so juvenile.
I rather name you , judas instead of friend .
You once had that jovial personality,
But everything tied down after knowing her .
She surreptitously changed you .
Didn't know you were ever so tenuous .
I was so determined to thwart her ,
but seems like i had a thumping defeat .

2009-09-27T14:29:00.002+08:00

Ji hoo ! LOL , don't he look better with shorter hair ?

Hair not nice :x

kinda have a singaporean look o.o

Sweet ! :x why jandi don't choose him ):
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lol , okay, i'm begin random today :x
I like boys over flowers alot ! hahah
Especially ji hoo, so sweet okay.
blahblahblah, okay i'm like going crazy.
Cut my feet today, don't know why either -.-
THANKS DEKAI FOR INTRODUCING SONG!
which is knives and pens by black veil brides.
Go listen to it, it's damn nice ;X
to those who likes screamo ? of course :D

Knives and pen ./

2009-09-24T15:26:00.005+08:00

---Biscuitx3 & --L~ ; wedding party .

A success after getting pissed off by some guy .

Heart taggings, lol ?

Love party , another success :D

Upgraded ring , chionging again soon

Heart tagging sessions again ! :D

Mastered how to chain '' let it snow'' .

All did cfm ; with havaianas member ^^

Edited pictures ; credits? me of course.

Michelle nuer edited this picture, thank you ! <3

Edited picture :D

-MinMin- edited this , thanks !

Hi guys! missed me ? :x

Well, alot of happenings this few weeks.

Yijie siaopeh and minmin just wedding and love party.

Biscuit ginneh and me just wedding and love party too .

Prelims ended and i got back my results.

1month 2days to Os english paper , ahhh boring !

lol ? yeah i seriously got nothing to blog this few days.

Couldn't concentrate at all , not a single bit .

Saving up money too, 10oct going yijie's birthday party ?

Then play pool , heehee! sure win ginneh again :D

210909 ; Biscuit & L . Another new story unfolds .

I want everything ! anything !

I want cash, money now !

I want freedom now !

I want to graduate now !

I want my exams to pass with flying colours !

I want to play audition now !

I want to buy '' black veil brides '' album now !

I want to do screamo now !

I want a job now !

I want to dye my hair now !

I want more piercings now !

I want to go partyyyyyyyyy all day now !

To you know yourself,

If you happen to pass by my blog, please please get out of it.

And just forget about everything alright,

Its impossible already, i had enough of lies.

Don't say you're not lying, don't say its not your fault.

Don't even dare to blame it onto your friends.

Thank you, byebye !

To someone i know .

Please try to fresh up your mind,

Its not what you think it is , ^^

Cheerup ! i guess everything's will be fine for you .

You asked to lead on happily, you should too .

lalala! poooooofs * gone .

2009-09-10T16:22:00.005+08:00

Taken outside plaza sing, edited picture .

Ewww! found this in sihui's blog D: candid lah !

Boys phototaking, from left to right .
Max, Zaixiang (jr), Marcus, YiJie (jr), Kevin (master)

Girls phototaking, take #1 !

Girls phototaking, take #2 !

Lovely couple photo take #1 !

Zaixiang (jr) ; Felicia

Lovely couple take #2 !

psst, they haven't stead yet .

Lovely couple phototaking part 2 .

Yijie (jr) ; huixin

Random picture ^^

3 brothers sitting together, marcus camera shy !

Twists it girls ! :D

Fam photo take #1 !

Fam photo take #2 !

Fam photo take #3!

Before fam photo, they sat in their own cliques -.-

Outside monstercue , waiting .

In monstercue , playing pool .

All camera shy ): ; outside plaza sing .

Hey guys ! back from school :x just did chemistry and physics practical .

editing pictures really takes time -.- plus comp lag .

okayokay, enough of th nonsenses .

Yesterday ;

Went out to plaza sing to find ginneh, and join his fam outing .

So extra right ! lol i'm bhb mah ): sadsad.

Met ginneh and th rest, and played 3hrs of lan .

Saw ahwei brother :3 talked to him, while he spam my keyboard .

After playing finish, went to monstercue and play pool .

One match with marcus, two matches with ginneh .

And i won all ! LOL pro pro ? :x but me and ginneh, was fighting for th last ball.

Th rest of th members didn't know how to play :x

hmm but i taught felicia to play ^^ lol .

Saw boo at pool, and ginneh VS boo one round , rofl !

Obviously boo win, 17 bully 14, unfair right ! D:<

Ginneh said that boo was shuai, lmao boo replied " his eyes got problem"

Playplayplay, then walked back to plaza sing,

Took pictures, manymanymany ! i'm like th second oldest thr ? -.-"

Finished taking, then walked to lan again.

Saw senghong kor, with his stead, tsk

Then saw lanlan, and ryan, lol.

Blahblahblah, went to eat, then trained home ^^

That's it . -------

Monday ;

Went out with sean , dekai and yongyong to shop.

Time to meet was 1 pm, at orchard mrt.

I reached at 1.30, saw sean, waited to 2++ dekai and yong came

Everyone was hungry so we went to eat, yumyum

We were buying pasta, all ate th same ! LOL

Outside th stall got some display garlic, which were fakes ? -.-

And a conversation started .... it was like this .

Sean : yongyong, you see ! a vampire touch garlic won't die.

Yong : LOL , really meh .

Sean : i thought vampires scare of garlic de ?

Lydia : THIS ARE FAKES ! See * shake th garlic * its empty inside !

Sean & yong : LOL !

retarded right ! lol they're saying i'm th vampire of course.

Bought our food and started eating, I couldn't finished it .

Dekai hardly touched th pasta ><

but it was not bad ah, quite nice ;D

Shopshopshop, from orchard walked to fareast, then to alot places.

Didn't see a single dress i liked -.- i hate skirts.

But dekai and sean both bought a shirt .

Then went to monstercue to play pooooool !

LOL won yongyong twice :x Saw boo, and zhengzhi and kl .

Then trained home, blahblah.

hahah nothing to say alr -.-

Byebye ! <3

2009-09-06T15:59:00.004+08:00

Kevin ginneh and me , spin spin spin spin .

Lol, legs out ! (:

OHOHOH ; ginneh is a santa claus :x

Me , ginneh and ahxiang ; man and women in black .

With joey sonneh and zaixiang ; lol bombed head and black shirt.

Playing with gm (:

Gm got th new angel costume ):<

Its been very long since i blogged right ?

Lol zaixiang complaining alr D:

hahah well everything is alright , except for th exams and yesterday.

Maths paper1 , first time can do maths o.o surprising .

Maths paper2 , in front easy, behind question 9 and 10 dint do .

Lol don't think can pass this time ):

Other papers were average , waiting for chemistry , biology and geography.

And go through paper, 2weeks break , and OLEVELS ! D:<

After Os, got promnight , die alr .

Classmates want me go lol, i never turn up for any teacher's day

or national day, racial harmony day also never.

Hahah this time is a must to go , must wear skirt -.-"

And saturday, please ! i was having a damn good mood.

then i reach serangoon go lan, audition cannot be played .

Nevermind , fine . then another thing happened, blood boiled.

But i sat down and talked to hongbin , LOL BOTAK !

Going to mugmugmug again, after exams then post okay ?

I own a stygian heart, don't ever get closer .

It would cause you strenuous efforts to .

I can give you a whimsical smile , but you'll start whimpering .

Coming closer would only make you more vulnerable .

Its unthinkable and definitely tainted, trust me .

2009-08-18T19:27:00.005+08:00

Man and woman in black doing cfm , LOL . ( Today )

Team cc4 ; be my lover . ( Last Friday )

2 hearts on top of th score , 31 hearts !

Hurhur ! First place with 1 golden heart . rofl

All red tags , master of different fams .

Hurhur! Hihihi , so long never post alr . LOL

Someone's complaining about my songs being outdated D:

lol, i'm going to mia th computer veryveryvery soon .

So don't miss me much , because i'm muggingmugging .

Hmm today , in th morning went to bus interchange to meet cheryl .

Then we sat at th back , along th way , she started to take photos again .

Somehow, she persuaded me to take some, pictures are uploaded into fs .

Hm today maths got bending class, luckily me ,yong and jacq are in th same class.

Th teacher isn't bad as i thought he is , at least i could learn .

Skipped maths remedial, and mock exam, went to hougang mall.

Went to return library books, couldn't find th other book i wanted.

Walked around with yong to find earstuds, along th way heard some one calling out .

Using th "tsktsk'' sound , so we turned around but see no one .

Later brought yong to clean hr piercings, two guys came down.

And made th tsktsk sound again, so me and yong turned around.

Later on, yong told me they were disturbing us, i was damn pissed off.

I didn't bother at first, but they did it again, this time disturbing me only.

I wanted to point middle finger as they went down, but yong stopped me .

Blahblah went home, played audition with kevin, proudly to say, my ginneh ^^

Have been playing with him recently, loads of fun ! Hahah

Screen shots are taken to prove it, are you jealous ? :x

Well, he got exams, and mine are coming. Sorry ginneh cannot play too much .

Darling, i'm not sick of listening to your stories.

Not tired being there for you whenever you need me.

I'm here for you to lean on, lending you my listening ear .

No matter what , no matter how , don't give up that easily.

You should know, love is hard to come by when two love each other deep.

Stop th suffering, stop th hurting .

Start believing, and make everything worth it .
--

fιч ωιтн мε, lεαd мε тняσυgн тн ωαч ..

2009-08-13T16:52:00.004+08:00

Yongyong & mark :3
-Credits : Me !

Markmarkmark wearing brian's specs .
-Credits : Me !

This isn't taken from th internet .
-Credits : Jacqueline <3

Yongyong emo-ing . :x
-Credits : Me !

Cover my face , camera shy :x
-Credits : Jacqueline <3

VAMPIRESVAMPIRES ! <3
--
--
Yesterday :
Hmm when to school as usual , wednesday -.-
Boring like always , but i was a good girl !
I helped twinneh to bandaged his middle finger . LOL
Naughty ah twinneh , what did you do ? :x
--
Today :
Skipped remedials again , lol went to slack .
For awhile , and home sweet home . boring right ? :x
--
Audition :
-LockUrBra- reopens ! but changed name to -HunKeeSiao~ .
Th main branch of th other two fams , -HunKeeSiao- and ~HunKeeSiao~ .
Recruitment is taking place in all three fams :D
HKSHKSHKS ! :3

And as th feelings grows, he breathes flesh to my bones .

2009-08-06T13:30:00.006+08:00

I'll walk away if i have to, and i'll walk alone .
Away from you , and your broken heart .
--
I'm feeling all so dyspeptic, no one seems to understand .
Its plausible that i'm done with all th platitudes of love .
To my friends , i'm spunky . But to a relationship , i'm nothing but a blockhead .
Fools in love, is there any other kind of pain ?
My sudden unceremonious might have hurted some, i'm apologetic .
Unhand me away from all sufferings , away from misery .
Sweet talks , they make me real vexed up, but i victimize you this time .
You're vociferous towards others , do it to me , give it to me .
I've looking into th mirror , seeing this wanly face staring back at me .
Who is she ? Where did she came from ? This isn't me .
Someone who possesed a vivacity became so lacklustre
Mayhap things changed, and people are trapped in mayhem .
A lager lout you might be, but you're not invulnerable.
With a cold gun, in your own hand, you can choose to take anyone's life.
There won't be a faintest trace of pity or guilt on your face, that i can swear.
At times i had expunge everthing about you off my mind.
Its th same if i breathe th motorway, just for th sake of breathing .
There's no need for any explanation .
--
In th light of sun , is there anyone ?
I would swear if there's an audience.
I'll start over , where no one knows my name.
Take a breath , make it deep .
Our sins, faults and our wrong doings .
Angels, they burn inside for us .
Now, let th rain wash all my memories away.
And let th sun, dry up all my tears and fears.
For tonight, i'm not gonna give in.
Thy shall not return.
Never the twain shall meet.

2009-08-04T13:24:00.003+08:00

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style.(True true true) This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person.(Not that early) And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.(Do i ?)
Your views on education .Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve. (True ! )

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The Real You

You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm ( Don't think so ). Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper ( Duh ? I'm not lady-like ); your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You don't really care about other people's feelings.( Absolutely no ! ) You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun ( Yes yes yes ! ), but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.

You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm. ( Hell no ! )

Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

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Nothing to do , must stay at home ):
Do quizes , lol this two are somewhat true .
Went to see a chinese doctor today , crapzxc .
Same medicine , but it's even worse .
Th cough and flu mixture is BITTER ! Wth ?
Yeahyeah , temp still at 39, but i'm feeling better .

2009-08-03T22:36:00.002+08:00

Yeah that's me , in th dark corner . Wearing mask -.-

That's my mum , now you know whr i got my 'fairness'
--
Okay, Since yesterday i've been burning up .
37 jump to 38 then 39 . Parents was like 'HUH' !?
Couldn't get a wink of sleep last night , hot like fook then cold like fook .
Woke up in th morning , took temp 38.9 . went to bathe, came out took temp 39.2
Crapzxc , i was wobbling in th toilet , my vision kept blurring .
So my mum hurried to bring me to see a doctor ,
Went down to my ahgong's house nearby clinic , need to wait till afternoon.
My mum didn't want to wait that long , so walked to my house oppsite clinic .
While walking, my goosebumps keep coming , th wind was so cold .
And you can really sing th song 'Rightround' to me , my head was spinning .
Need to wait for an hour or so , so i told my mum , if i continue waiting , i'll be dead.
Then waited for mum's friend to bring me see another doctor .
Went paya lebar clinic , th first thing they ask when i went in was
'' got fever ? if have must wear mask '' then i was shocked .
Because i went straight into th room , so retarded, first time wearing mask .
Took temp 39 . Got flu , running nose , cough , sorethroat , back ache , fever .
First time take my blood pressure lol , doctor say i got all th symptoms of h1n1 .
most likely i'm infected by h1n1 , 7days mc quarantine . roar ?!
crapzxc lah , bored staying at home , but i can't go anywhere , anytime can faint.
--
I didn't know what else to say , except for i'm sorry .

2009-08-01T21:11:00.002+08:00

Marcus wearing my hairband ;O
-Credits : Lydia !

What is he doing anyway ? LOL

Hahs, retarded twistttttt .

Aww emo :x

-Credits : Lydia !

Found this in facebook , LOL

-Credits : Glen wee .

Twinneh Shouliang :3

Heh, those pictures are taken last saturday .

Didn't felt like blogging hence didnt post it up until today .

Was at kovan centre lan , at night zenice came to find me .

Nothing much anyway , bored .

Hm during th weekdays wanted to pierc helix .

Then went hougang mall with yong and jacq .

Yong cleaned her piercings , then cannot endure th pain of another .

Jacq cannot make up her mind , besides someone didnt allow her .

So never pierce in th end .

Argh, marcus having troubles with that fooker guy .

Fooker said he'll report to police , if MC was to get whacked .

And definately say is me tiao zui call ppl .

Crapzxc can ?! You humjikia , just fuck off ppl's life .

Even my mum said that he promised that in school marcus won't get whacked.

But in th end ? that fooker lied , and how is he going to be responsible of that ?

Duh ? Fooker said to be this , listen to what a ADULT councilor say .

: Its not my responsibility if your brother gets beaten up .

: He's not my responsibility , and you think i don't know you got gang ?

: In school ppl back you up , now call ppl want whack MC they all .

Hahs , understand by USELESS teacher means now ?

Well, i shouldn't be talking about all this now .

Hahaha, skipskipskip many things instead .

Yesterday was loving day , many chain msg of friendships .

Many cheerups and loves . hence i'm going to give special msg too :3

I love love love love love love love my darling melissa :3

Cheer up girl , you know i'm always here for you .

When things are meant to be , they will be .

So don't think too much , don't cry , don't be sad .

He told me that , you're happy is much more important .

And he promised me he won't leave you alright .

Smile smile smile , be happy <3

I love love love love love love love my twinneh shouliang :3

Cheer up too twinneh , this year is our important year .

Study first , th rest second, love included .

Is she worth all of what you're doing ? Does she ?

Even if everyone agrees she's worth it , i don't .

Maybe you'll tell me , you're happy like this .

I don't believe it , i really don't , you're so much happier in th past .

I love love love love love love love my goodfriend rayray :3

Thanks for being there , ever since i knew you .

Hahs, we're each other listening ear , promised .

Well, i hope hope hope you'll find a greatgreatgreatgirl aye .

I love love love love love love love my everything zenice :3

Eventhough we're not contacting each other this few days .

But you're th one always making me smile and laugh .

I'll never forget about how we used to be , and i still want it .

I want us to be like th past , and not now ):

I'm sorry if i ever made you sad , angry , disappointed , i didnt mean it .

I love love love love love love love my jacqueline and yongyong :3

Girlsgirlsgirls , you're just my sunshine babes !

Sitting th same row , eating at th same table , doing work together .

We do things almost everything tgt in school .

Never apart ! <3

I love love love love love love love my brothers ! :3

Clarence , mark , jinhong , i miss you guys damn alot .

We have school and ns , can't meet up everytime ,

But there will be holidays , so can we meet meet meet ?

Omfg , i just miss our outings , drinking , having fun .

Let's party once more , pleaseeeee

2009-07-23T23:03:00.002+08:00

Wednesday : joey , xiongwei , elton , dekai , jacq and yong .

Credits : me and eric (:

Cheryl's grabbing my head ):

Glen wee , my ' real ' cousin :D

Tuesday :
After school went to hougang mall with jacq and yongyong .
Did our piercings , and it hurts ? -.- Crapzxc .

Going to have another piercing tomorrow , i guess .

Wednesday :
Had our Os chinese listening compre , 1.30 sch ends .

2.15 gather at bball court , 2.30 go class , 3.00 start paper .
Damn waste of time lol , th 30min before paper starts , i was alr sleeping .

Went home together with joey , xiongwei , elton , dekai , jacq, yong and eric .
Joey is camera shy :x She don't want to take picutres .

Today :

In th morning, was waiting for cheryl and th bus to come .
She reached , then we talked about '' gou zai dui '' , then she started being one .
Took candid photos of me , then this picture which i uploaded .

Th so called '' grabbing '' of my head , like th toy machine .

Duh it was funny , and i started doing it too :x

In class, totally boring , freaking stressful with sets of paper coming in .

all my stacks of worksheets , can be your one year supply of toilet paper .

Continue tomorrow bah , gotta go sleep , nights (:

2009-07-19T16:59:00.002+08:00

ROCKMYWORLDBABY,ANDBRINGMEUPHIGH .
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Please someone, anyone brighten my day once more .
I had enough of everything , once , twice and again .
Pffft , seriously would you tell me , you can live without a man .
Promises , what are they ? give me th real answer .
Since you're so clever, you knew everything , you shouldn't take this step .
Someoneblew my candles out , leaving me fighting for my survival .
Now i'm re-tracking back who was it , but it seems i had nothing from th start.
I realised , i was nothing , nothing at all .
Hit me , punch me , kick me , i don't think i can feel th pain anymore .
Numbed from th start , no wonder i couldn't feel .
Back to square one , that's what i always say .
I'll be fine , i'll be okay , but i'll never be good enough that's for sure .

2009-07-19T11:45:00.005+08:00

It couldn't be more complicated than this .

Listen…

Can’t count on you most of all when I really need it
It’s the simple things that you do, really hurt my feelings
The more I try, the more I’m starting to see it
This can’t work anymore, than you believe it

Goodbye may come as a shock
Even though I love you a lot
I’ve given every breath I’ve got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe

And how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me

And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me

Listen…

I just don’t know what the problem is, what the deal is
Was I there too much, did I move too fast, I couldn’t see it?
All these promises are probably how you deal with it
I’m tired of hearing you say your innocent

Don’t think I forgot
Because I really didn’t care if you’re lying a lot
I’ve given every breath I’ve got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe

And how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me

And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me

We all make mistakes
Sometimes we do desperate things
What does it prove? Nothing
And you never do nothing wrong

Then what took you so long, took you so long
Cuz I keep, keep hanging on, keep, keep hanging on

And how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me

And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me

So don’t promise me
So don’t promise me

Keri Hilson , A promise in th dark .

2009-07-17T20:53:00.003+08:00

Once upon a time , this little princess believe in love .
Pfft, i thought you were th one who wouldn't lie.
But i was wrong again , i learn to trust too easily .
Knowing that this isn't true , but yet i chose to believe it .
Iloveyou, its just absolutely sweet, but it isn't true .
Maybe because i changed , i don't know .
I shouldn't bother anyway, i'm not important .
Yepps, look at this IMNOTIMPORTANT .

Some problems outside today .
Marcus got into some troubles, but its not his fault .
Blame it on some fuckers( you know who you are ) .
Giving me crapzxc ? Listen up , idonttrustsuchidiots.
Bootlicking won't help, trying to act you're *OhSoInnocent* , think over .
Manzxc, you're just so a hypocrite, enough about you .
Not going to dirty my blog with your ridiculous acts .

Guys out there , those who i associate with , ppl who got gangs .
Listen up now , some BIBLF , said i got gang , so looookie here.
ME,LYDIACHUAPEIJUN,PLAYSBLACKSHIRT. Understand ? (:
And whoever who believes that are another BIBLF. tyvm .
Please reflect on yourself , fuckupass .
Having a fucking bad mood , including fucking bad attitude and temper.
My mum ran off , happy now ? Thanks to you're '' GREAT '' help ,
How wonderful is that , she's not coming home for soon .
Shouldn't you applause for us ? Clapclap , fucker made my home upsidedown.
Dogs scolded my brother, and he actually did nothing .
I waited outside school for my brother , and you think i tiao zui ?
What a joke, want a star for your fabulous joke ? -.-
Well, now i know . Dogs understand each other well , and watch each other backs .

Enough for today , bloodyhellpissedoff.
This is my blog , i write what i like , if you don't like it , that's your problem.
Dare to admit that you're th one ? i welcome you at my blog .

IF YOU STILL GOT TH GUTS , TH CHEEKS , AND TH FACE TO COME TO MY BLOG , KINDLY FUCK OFF FROM IT , I DON'T NEED YOUR ATTENTION HERE .

Things shldnt turn out like this .

2009-07-12T19:44:00.002+08:00

Stupid blogger , got problems again .
Cannot post pictures D: Heh !
Mia-ing soon , if blogger okay alr , then i post my pictures.
Which are mostly things i found in my closet LOL.
Cyahhhhh sooooooon :D
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IF ONLY !
Things were to be perfect from th start , without any hurtings .
Love isn't a game , iloveyou wasn't suppose to be said randomly .
Knowing me for a day or two , and telling youlovemelikefook .
I don't accept such things , i'm not convinced , really .
All your stories were kinda made up , but they're touching thou .
But i'm not a 3 year old child , it isn't as interesting as you said .
I told you from th start , i'm different , i'm not used to it .
You said you didn't mind , but still wanted to see a change in me .
Our past relationship was awesome , but its over .
I don't know how to explain it further on , its useless anyway .
--
IF ONLY !
You were there from th start , to stop me from falling .
Picking me up , when i hurt my knees , wiping my tears , when i cry .
Disappointed but face th fact , we can't change time .
You made me laugh , made me smile , made me cry .
Maybe in time , i would learn to love once more .
I'm some ordinary girl you'll find plenty on th streets .
Not special , not cool , not gentle , definately not good .
爱不是游戏!

2009-07-10T14:09:00.006+08:00

Class during recess , That first table is eric's .

Messy ! Taken by me .

Eric , Lydia's study budd , plus a asswipe .

Candid shot by lydia .

Marcus and me , acting boylish .

-Credits to marcus .

Hey guys , my mood isn't that good now , hence i might sound boring .

Yesterday night went down to mac to find twinnehliang .

Saw xiaohui , pakcheong , jiaxin and another sec2 guy .

Watched them play bball for awhile and went home .

Twinneh just kept bullying me ):

Not sure going down anot , missed them alotzxc .

Hmm miss SBSFL too , but sadly none of seems to be in contact alr .

Ahh, damn bored now , tons and tons of things to say , but i can't .

You don't understand , don't tell me you do .

You're not th one , i don't know who is .

I had enough of pain , i'm just suffering .

Just stop what you're doing , hate is replacing .

I know it hurts , but suffer now than later .

我非常痛苦,不能呼吸.

你说你爱我,可惜我不能感觉到它的存在.

对不起,不能接受你的爱.

Why is love that complicated ?

I had always thought it's just like , iloveyou .

Simple as that , don't you see ?

Roses ,rings ,dates , i don't need them .

Say you love me , everytime i wanna hear them .

Your trust , your patience , that's all i need .

Is it too much of a request ?

Lydia is a strong girl , she can take care of herself .

If you were to think she's weak , she needs a boyf .

So that he could protect and take care of her , you're wrong .

Scream your head off , Make me high .

Be my sunshine, be my superman .

Maybe and Perhaps .

2009-07-09T16:00:00.006+08:00

Taken last week, pe lesson
-Credits to Yong .

Doodddleeeee :D
-Credits to Jacq , Eric and me .

Aww , emo jacqueline :x
Lydia took it , LOL .

Chatting in th toilet . Crazy ? LOL
-Credits to Yong .
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Hey ! zxc , today morning damn sleepy , yawnzxc .
Keep falling asleep , again and again .
Gave my morning call , and i went to school .
Reached alr , luckily no hair check , then blahblah .
Lesson starts , and eric started mummbling about yesterday .
And i just argue along with him , duh it was childish .
He mentioned that these few days i suddenly become very hardworking .
And he overheard my conversation btw my gfs few days back .
He asked me , why did you break ? you look as if you don't like him , why stead ?
I was stunned , nothing to say , bo wei gong .
Then he said that , am i eating th wrong medicine ? i'm weird recently .
Continued doing my work , im seriously studying now -.-
Okay , in biology class , talked to zaniel alot , LOL now he understands .
Went back to class , rumoured said that today got 2.4km run .
But in th end also don't have :x dumb rumours .
After recess , i went to th toilet , a picture to prove :D
Talked to gary , hahah with yongyong , and yongyong said hi to him .
Damn funny :x and she was like , what he say ? what he say ? LOL
went back to class , do work again , blahblah . after sch, skipped remedial .
Eat lunch at gardens , then came home , nobody at home , that's why blogging .
well , not using comp today alr , Cyah ! :D
--
--
Recently i've been thinking alot , time and time again .
Didn't have th slightest idea what's going on .
I only know , you were th listening ear to all my problems .
All along , i was pretending to smile , pretending to laugh .
Not now , i'm genuinely laughing and smiling .
Trying to be th goodgirl , i'm trying hard to change .
Am i doing too much ? Even my friends don't believe it .
Haaa , but forever , i'll be this way , yet i'll stop my childish acts .
I'll never give up trying to feel , never give up giving my best .
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Maybe this time , you're wrong , i'm right .
I'm not th goodgirlfriend you thought i am .
But nevertheless , thanks for th memories .
Now i need to reconsider , maybe it was th best for us .
I was wrong at th start , it is a wrong timing .
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谁从我天空摘走了星星 ,
Someone stole my stars away , resulting me to be caught in this pitch black life .
从来快乐悲伤都自己横行 ,
My sorrows , my depressions , were all kept within myself .
忘了我也值得被关心 ,
Forgetting , i'm worth people's concern .
痛到忘了要怎么喊痛 ,
Used to th pain , numbed feelings .
漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过 ,
Lonely for so long , it buried away everything else .
其实我也想要拥抱的温柔 ,
In fact , i longed for someone's warmth .
还有谁能够紧握着我的手 ,
But who will hold my hand and lead me thru th way .
那是谁的温柔留在我的小手 ,
Whose warmth lingers upon my hand , i wonder .
有谁能陪我手牵着手走 ,
And who will be with me thru thick and thin .
谁能让我相信被爱的理由 ,
Who will be that person to prove to me , love existed .
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Th song 寂寞光年 inspired me :D
Love th song so much, every sentence make sense to me .
And i've been through all of it . Just waiting for th right time .

L to th Y to th D to th I to th A , LYDIA !

2009-07-07T18:42:00.003+08:00

Hahaaaa, Jacquelineeeeeeeee mummy , i told you i will find th video :D
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I know gary is now viewing my stupid bloggggie , LOL
Surprise surprise ! Lydia's watching your every move manzxc !
Dangdang , yesterday night talked to zenice , then she went to sleep .
Then talked to gary , he's godlike can , laughs .
If i'm a book , he's like reading every single detail of it ,
And how long did i know you ? that's th surprising part of it ,
I'MHAPPYTOKNOWYOU! although you don't seems to scare me :x
Wake up at 5.42am , bathe , gave morning call and off to schooooool .
Went to school , damn bored ! Yawnzxc .
First period is biology , then we need to write alot of stuff .
No time to finish it in class , then after school pass up .
Second period is chemistry , reading mag and sms , then sudd i started doing work .
Later look down , saw xiao hui , he saw me too , we both smiled .
Hmm next lesson is geo , then i started focusing on my work alr .
Finished everytime damn quickly , no mistakes , and eric was shocked .
He thought i ate wrong medicine , ERICYOUHAVEN'TSEENMEWHENI'MSERIOUS!
Uhh before recess finished bio stuff , maths and poa totally never listen ,
cannot concentrate alr , skip remedial also , damn stupid aye ?
Came home , no keys -.- climbed th window , cannot reach th lock .
Then called mummy , she reached and gave me th keys .
After that , bathe and eat and everything , i started to rot infrnt of th comp .
DANG! that's all :D LOL crappy day right !?
NAUGHTYPIGGYBOY, IMDONE,YOUCANREADITNOW :D
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Sometimes i wonder , is love worth it all ?

For us to sacrifice others for our girlf/boyf .

2009-07-07T18:04:00.002+08:00

MR BROWN'S SINGAPORE VERSION OF NOBODY ! LOL ,

2009-07-06T21:22:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST JINHONG !
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Happy birthday to you ,
Happy birthday to you ,
Happy birthday to JINHONG ,
Happy birthday to you .
祝你生日快乐 ,
祝你生日快乐 ,
祝你生日快乐 ,
祝你生日快乐 .
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Heehee! Today's Jinhong's birthday .
Terribly sorry ! can't celebrate on last friday with you .
But i'm here to wish you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY !
LOL ! went to tamp with zenice and marcus .
Showed zen how i play guitar :x damn funny .
Jammed with other band today , th yellow shirt guy damn fooking .
Act one rockstar , when he don't know how to play .
And he is simply seeking attention , when nobody gives him .
Talked to deartwinnneh , dekai , xiangwei on msn .
Damn funny ! webcammed ! :D
DEKAI'S 43 YEAR OLD ! LAOAHPEK !
LOL ! :x sure gonna get killed tmr in school .
TwinnnnnnnnnehLIANGLIANG , cannot catch me plus cannot find me .
You noob lah :x loveeeeeeeeee <3

2009-07-05T23:02:00.002+08:00

Move your bodyyyy to th side ~

YAY ! Wedding pass , Grats zenice and gary :D

Wedding party successful , congratulations !

Their first ring :D Waiting for more love party !

Twin sisters ! :D Zeniceeee and meeee .

Grats Zenice on her wedding party with Gary .

Grats Kelvin leveled up to worldstar .

Sorry don't have cash to mega today :x

Changed ign to --L~ , which represents my name duh -.-

Was having such a great mood , and people tends to spoil it .

If you weren't his friend , i would have alr scolded you like shitzxc .

Haa , my friend even told me you tried to hong him ,

And when he saw your friendster , cui ah , meaning buang ?

Don't anyhow open your mouth and start spouting nonsenses .

One's appearance don't mean anything , and one's attitude shows it all .

Having a tattoo means piakia ? smoking means piakia ?

Please ? If it really means piakia , you're liking a piakia , so what's th diff ?

And isn't yourself one ? Since you have scolded vulgar before .

Think before you talk , use your brain and not your butt , ass ? W/E .

Maybe i'm just overacting ,

But seriously , you don't know anything .

2009-07-05T01:13:00.003+08:00

No pain , no gain .
--
TWINNNNEH SHOULIANG ,
YOUR BIGBIGNAME IS HERE :D
Did you miss my bedtime stories of lamia and th old granny ? I don't mind repeating th story for you -
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Hey ! cmon , Lydia's sickkkkkkk ! LOL .
Flu , cough , sorethroat , fever , tiredness , backache . Alike to H1N1 isn't it :x
Don't worry , not inflected by it , i didn't vomit , so its okay .
Hmm past few days been talking to twinneh pretty much , about love life and LAMIA .
Hahah :x but he still can sleep after all th horrible things i said , eww inhuman !
Twinneh ! Charmed th wrong person ! hahahahhaha , laughingmyheadoff !
Goodluck twinneh ,don't let me see her pestering ,or else i'll be rolling on th floor .
Hahah ! i'm so mean , but there's a message to give that girl , from me ! :D
Hey girl , don't disgrace us girls okay ,
If he dislike you , don't continue bugging him like a bumble bee .
Hmm past few days been damn bored , friday no school <3
Thursday got pe , and i took siti's STJOHN'S burette [ don't know how to spell ]
And i wear it , Mr lee still go disturb siti say that later i got headlies or something LOL .
Obviously i don't have , i keep a good body hygiene okays !
Hmm our pe is during upper sec recess , so kinda have ppl playing bball .
Then saw pakcheong , his face was like so siansian that kind .
Later Xiaohui came along , LOL he wanted to shoot a ball for me to see .
And it didn't went in , awwww sad ): next time okays :D
Went home , chat with twinneh on msn ,
And i was laughing to myself throughout th whole session.
-Friday- stayed at home , didn't go anywhere , due to my sickness .
At night mummy brought me to see a doctor , luckily no H1N1 !
-Saturday- Went to guitar lesson and went SDD lan .
Saw my LONGTIMENOSEEFRIEND ! Hongbin , must be goodboy .
Then met gary too , zhiyin happens to be there too :D
Was so happy and hyper , then my dad called , and everything became crapzxc.
So now i'm at home blogging my day ,
And so my twinneh won't complain not seeing his name :x
MISSYOULOADSOKAYTWINNEHLIANGLIANG !
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Remembered how we used to be so close .

Now everything seems different , we all changed.

How i wished i could be there for you , and you won't fall .

2009-07-03T15:43:00.003+08:00

Th grass is always greener on th other side .

I'm truly sorry , but i can't hold on anymore .

I'm sick and tired of relationships i guess .

I feel so much better being single , i don't understand why .

Sorry for saying so much that didn't come true ,

I'll understand if you were to hate me , i don't mind .

2009-06-30T21:59:00.003+08:00

HEYHEYYOUYOU ! IDON'TLIKEYOURGIRLFRIEND ! .
Candid pictures ! in school toilet ! LOL :x

Yongyong refuses to face th camera !

Y , L ,C and A :D

Lala, reflections :D

Okayokay , time to mugmugmugmugmugmug -.-

Damn freaking stressed up already , everyday homework like wtf ?

Hmm regrets regrets , not studying in th holidays .

Aww , i'm superly high today ! Happyhappyhappy <3

But not for long , tomorrow will be a long day , having early nights :D

Disappointment , crapzxc , whywhywhy !?

SUPERROCKSTAR, THATSWHATIWANTTOBE .

Im sorry , so damn sorry if i neglected , ignored , or whatever .

Really , i ........ have nothing to say , hahahah ! :x

2009-06-24T00:43:00.003+08:00

If you were to give me a real rose , i'll throw it away .
But if you were to give me a fake rose , i'll keep it forever .
For real rose , dies . And fake , never will .

Hmm nothing much to write about neh , today went to find zenice .
Then went to school , practiced check yes juilet and face down .
My finger nails are breaking , should cut them earlier duh .
Crapzxc, i can't stop at all , swear to quit it , but my body refuses .
When i pick it up , th adrenaline is flowing rapidly , and it feels heavenly .
But of course th after effects of it are terrible , gastric afterwards .
Because i didn't eat lunch, and i went giddy, after dinner worst, felt like vomitting .

Now and forever .

2009-06-21T14:18:00.001+08:00

AYE ! BLOGGER LOUSY HEH !
Zxczxc, want to post pictures cannot , want to chg th font bigger also cannot .
Wth is this !? ):< , * Kicks blogger * ...
Hmm friday night talked to yw, zenice and clarence .
yw and clarencec slept first , me and zenice talked till morning around 7 plus .
{ Saturday }
Then i told her i need 1hour sleep , but i slept for 3hours .
Damnzxc i was late for my guitar lesson if i were to take a bus there .
So my brother and i took a cab down , which was $12+ , nearly died alright .
I still rbm th car plate number ,SHA916H , peeps please don't take this cab .
He sings randomly while driving , then wipes his face / eyes , freehand on th wheel .
going 70km/hr zxc , th car in front was like so damn close to us ..
Okay reached there , played our songs , and went back to serangoon .
Sat awhile then jinhong came , say wanna go novena , but i need to wait for zenice .
Told them to go off first , but clarence didn't want to leave me alone waiting ,
hence all waited for her at lorongchuan mrt, she arrived and we all went novena .
Met a girl , don't know why zenice , my bro , and i was damn pissed off .
Mark , clarence , jinhong and that girl sat inside Starbucks while th 3 of us outside .
Alot of calls and smses made , too lazy to elaborate what happened .
Then th 3 of us went back to serangoon , practically to my house .
Hmm mummy came back and went out again , so we 3 went out too .
Walked till 317 to find them , and none of them notice our presence LOL :x
Then jh got a shocked , clarence came over and asked : When your come de ?
Siangwei asked th same question and i just answered in dialet , but translate for you .
: Bo xim , shi uni kuan aye , meaning no heart ppl are like this .
Then don't know what they say , i forgot about it .
After zenice finished her cupnoodles , we 3 and siangwei went to garden sit .
10.30pm sent zenice to her mrt , and we walked back .
Not long after , my bro and i went home , -.-
Reached home , watched tv , smsed baby and talked to zenice .
But zenice fell asleep suddenly so i hang up th call , then baby called .
Later yw went to sleep , i continue watching tv for awhile then sleep .
Didn't eat th whole day , but surprisingly not hungry :D
{ Sunday / Today }
Yay ! first try pass wedding with yw <3>
Heh don't know what's yw doing with my account now . * Curious *
Hmm maybe there's more to say later on , so i'll continue blogging later aye .

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Damn crapzxc , i'm so sorry ! i thought you didn't changed at all .
Just blame it on me yeah ? I was just too stupid to think you didn't .
Crapzxc damn disappointed , but well you realised it , we're all different anyway .
Remember what you told me ? So please, wake up now , don't behave this way .
I got th best sister ! <3>
ZENICELIM, LYDIACHUA AISINI AYE! eventhough you're scare of birds , *Winks*
Wedding proposal :
I, LydiaChuaPeiJun , swear to love zenice through eternity .
Promised to take care of her , if birds were to attack and harm her .
LydiaChuaPeiJun is willing to take ZeniceLimJoEe's hand
And together lead a beautiful life , of our own family <3>
Zenice got read anot !? I WON'T DEL THIS POST :D

A new chapter .

2009-06-19T09:17:00.005+08:00

No lies , Just love . Nothing but your name carved .

Yesterday went out around 3 plus,found zen sitting at my house stairs .

My mum is showing me attitude duh , didn't talk for two days alr .

Don't know what's so fcuk up about this family,totally crapzxc .

Went down to 315 , found nobody .

Ate icecreams , and slacked for awhile .

Later on,zen went to disiao a bab ,and th baby screamed and coughed,lmao .

Then she disiao me , funny ah zenice ?! LOL can i don't del my post please .

At night talked to yw , zenice and siangwei , but siangwei went to sleep first.

yw talked with us till 2.30am , he was freaking tired alr,murmuring things to himself .

Hmm private talk with him to chase him to bed , lol damn funny .

Talk with zen for awhile more, around 2.45.

She was also tired alr , so i chased her to sleep .

I was th only one left awake , duh of course i fell asleep soon .

Guess i was th one who wake up early too,was being disturbed by my father .

Fall back to sleep, then woke up by my brother again , hence i'm here blogging .

Must call zenice, but i'm sure she's sleeping like a pig .

2009-06-17T14:16:00.002+08:00

Just let it be free .

Heh, not intending to go anywhere today .

Seriously need some thinking in my life .

Should i just continue being this bad ?

Or truly become a goodgirl for once .

I'm so bored staying at home and going out doing nothing .

Agree with clarence, we're seriously '' no life '' .

Duh, visited siangwei yesterday in hospital .

Actually all of us didn't believe him , but still went down .

He look cute in hospital clothes thou :x

3 bears at th back, LOL funny .

A patient shouldn't smoke, don't you agree ?

But he did ah , crapzxczxc .

There was a flock of birds when we're in th garden .

Then zenice threw a sweet warper on th floor ,

all th birds came flying over, and she was scared :x

She climb up th bench behind my back, duh i was laughing my head off .

I feel so empty , my mind's in a blank .

Everything has its ups and downs ,

But i've been living in dark lately .

Someone's pulling me out , he's reaching out his hands .

Are those hands th ones i've been searching for ?

Will he let go if i hold on ,Will he let me fall back once more ?

Trying to believe .

2009-06-16T20:59:00.002+08:00

What else can you do , when i'm holding on th triumph card .

I'm just being plain naughty .

Heh, decided to change my looks .

Punkrock when i graduate from th broken down school .

While now , just plain jane will do .

I'll change in time , i swear .

2009-06-11T13:15:00.003+08:00

I know i can't stop myself .
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Hmm i didn't go out today , stayed at home .
Freaking bored , but oh well , better than nothing .
Wasn't in any good mood today .
Got insulted for nothing , bright early morning .
It was so damn crap alright , he was just so bhb .
Don't know what's thickskin , 厚脸皮 .
Go look in th mirror yourself , do you really think you look that good ?
In my point of view , you look totally gay , and retarded .
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YOU THINK YOU'RE SOME BIG FUCK ?
OMG , GO TO HELL , AND GET SOME LIFE .

Monkey war (:

2009-06-08T20:11:00.004+08:00

Missing th swing when i'm young .

Went out to slack with zenice,brian and clarence .

Been considering whether to put tattoo on my back .

I'm afraid of th pain, and i'm afraid if i'll regret later on .

If i have tattoos , i'll continue putting and piercing .

Seriously, its now or never, so cmon vote . To put or not .

I've stop believing , don't ask why, because i don't .

What's love ? What's your definition of love ?

My definition, if th one i love is happy, i'll be happy too.

No matter who are they with, no matter what they do .

When you appeared ,

All she wanted was to love you .

You never gave her a chance ,

She didn't mind about it .

Haven't you thought about it ?

Why she's all blue and drown ?

Th truth hides behind her lips ,

And tears were forced to stop .

She's afraid of th truth you speak ,

Which had already made her heart split .

Now she's all worn out ,

And she's wondering how ,

To continue living her life without a purpose now .

{ Random poem lydia wrote }

I quited smoking ,

I quited cutting ,

I quited loving ,

I quited crying .

You'll never see me shed a tear .

2009-06-08T10:44:00.002+08:00

Angel wings tattoos.

Devil wings tattoo.

Those wings are damn nice .

Its damn painful, but its worth it to have such an art piece behind your back .

Yeah i know, i seems to change into someone different.

But who gives a damn ? not me, not anymore .

I'm gonna change, not gonna waste my time.

I only have one lifetime to be doing things i love.

You can't stop me anyway, so don't even think about it.

All these while, i'm just pretending someone i'm not.

I can be damn hyper, i can be damn loud.

I can be damn crazy, i can be damn violent.

I'm totally a extrovert inside, but i chose to be someone else.

I remain as gentle as possible, as quiet as a mouse.

Staying as still as a statue not moving around like a clown.

You'll never how its like to be me.

Just continue lying and we'll see ..

And so what if my attitude changed ?

Look at what you did , stop pretending .

Don't act as if you don't know a thing .

You're th one who brought me up, and threw me down .

After so long till you tell th truth , you made me feel so wrong .

You're feeling for both , but you have one .

So let th other one go , let me breathe .

I'm not gonna stress over such minor things , but its bothering me .

I don't understand why , can't a girl and a guy just be good friends ?

I'm willingly letting go alr, why can't you ?

Just last long with her , i won't be involved .

2009-06-07T00:31:00.002+08:00

Had enough.

2009-06-05T20:25:00.009+08:00

though these few days i've been crying my eyes out.
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To M :
If you really loved me, would you stop me from doing harm to myself ?
If you really loved me, why must you find some other girl as substitude?
If you really loved me, you would have send me home , am i right ?
If you really loved me, don't you wished to see me happy instead ?
If you really loved me, could you have left me crying alone ?
If you really loved me, can't you just let me love whoever i wanted to ?
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To B :
Did you really think, reading my stupid blog would meant knowing me ?
Did you really think, after seeing me once and telling me you love me, i will believe ?
Did you really think, telling me you'll wait , will let me be convinced ?
Did you really think, i can give him up that easily as you mentioned ?
Did you really think, waiting is that easy as you supposed ?
Did you really think, you will make me forget his everything like you said you will ?
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To J :
So you thought that you're not worth it ?
So you thought that i can forget about everything and accept someone else ?
So you thought that she won't be hurt after knowing what he done ?
So you thought that he could make me happier if i'm with him ?
So you thought that i'm wasting my time ?
So you thought that its that easy to say forget , and i'll forget ?
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To ahJ :
When i said we can't be, i really meant it .
When i said i'm tired, i'm really tired.
When i said sorry, i really feel that way.
When i said stop wasting your time, i really wanted you to stop.
When i said i don't care, i really got nothing else to say.
When i said no, i really really really want it to stop.
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The truths behind all ...
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I had enough of pretending,pretending that im happy .
I cried everyday to sleep, sometimes not even sleeping.
Recently i'm seriously tired, i had enough of listening to quarrelments at home.
I covered my ears, and forced my eyes to shut, so i could sleep.
Its true i'm hiding things from you, but who am i to share ?
Tell me, who am i to you ? Friend, sister, stranger, or simply no one .
People told me, Love is selfish, Love is blind. So did you.
You wanted me to accept him, eventhough he got a girlfriend.
And you gave me th reason because love is selfish.
Geee, you should know me well, i won't accept no matter what.
Because he chose th wrong person to fling with.
If he really loved me for so long, why didn't he ask when he loved me at first?
Why wait till so long ? Why he love me and yet find another girl ?
If he really loved me, won't he happy if he sees im happy too ?
Why get jealous ? why get upset ? why must he even care ?
I'm nothing ! I'm nobody ! I'm just plain jane ! ...
Enough of him, enough of all th lies, i don't believe him.
Please, just understand me. when i say no, i really don't want it.
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I'm invisible, invisible to you.
I'm beginning to see th light, th light towards reality.
I've been staying too long in th darkness of my dreams.
But i don't want to get out,i want to continue to hide in it.
I can't tell th truth right in your face, i don't dare too.
I'm afraid you'll run away, i'm afraid history will repeat itself.
And if it does, i'm not sure if i can hold on any longer.
I've been keeping things to myself, to myself alone.
I can't bring myself to tell them to you.
Like i always say, One suffering is better than two.
I believe i'm strong enough to endure everything, like how i used to.
Although i cry, but i swear, yesterday will be th last day you'll see my crying in front of you.
If goodbye was all you wanted, tell me.
I'll wave my hands, and hug you goodbye.
And that will be th last time you'll see me, i swear.
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Thanks girlf huilin and zenice for being there to listen to me <3
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Ps: Pointless to speak, i'm sorry that i've been acting this way.

so damn numb alr.

2009-06-03T20:46:00.009+08:00

In th circle line mrt's toilet . LOL

Candid pictures of me, blurrrrr ~

Take cover ! Omg .

Twist with me, and fcuk you in between.

Advertising for drink and food :D

Clockwise direction /} Siangwei, brian, zenice and me :D

Heh, credits to brian who took this (:

Ohhh! i'm back from a dayout with cliqueeeee ! damn i love those guys :D

went to find zenice in th afternoon in th circle line mrt, lorong chuan.

Keep drinking alot of water today, ate 3 icecream at one go .

zenice also eat 3 :x LOL damn funny, damn bored.

Feeling so moody today, damn fcuked up with myself.

punched th wall like crazy, got stopped by siangwei.

Later was pushed against th wall by siangwei, then my arm brushed against th wall.

hahah played with camera's then * Blink blink blink * Pictures produced.

hmm sat on th bricks, and drink eat take pictures, then jh came to collect things.

Me and zenice ran to toilet, mark and brian came along also.

See th pictures, th last one. Me and zenice's th hair colour so much difference.

My hair look like dyed ? LOL its so natural luh . i never dye before.

I've been singing this song, all night long.

Th lyrics are playing in my head, over and over again.

With images of you,and tears rolling down my face.

I've been alone for so long, searching for something i don't know.

Th moonlight shone on me, and i wonder how it feels if you're right beside.

With th darkness closing in, and hands searching for another.

{ No more mood to continue my song/poem, whatever you call it. }

I'm not like any other girls, i don't want anything in return.

2 years back i'm like this, till now i'm still like this.

I never change, i don't want to, i never wish to.

Why did i have to say it out ? Why did you want to know them all ?

I told you everything , everything which i kept for so long.

Now do you understand why, why i'm like this.

If i had a choice, i really wished it wasn't you.

But i can't stop it now, i really can't, not this time.

I swear, i really swear i won't want someone so badly again.

I swear, i really swear i won't try so hard th next time.

I swear, i really swear upon my whole life on it.

I thought she really loved you, that's why i helped and speak up for her.

Never did i knew , how she hurted you so badly.

If i could , i would alr heal up your wounds but i can't .

HL.